Struggle

I'm cold and i'm afraid, i'm sad and i'm confused. I'm stuck in such an immovable rut, at least for the next year of my life. I try to remain positive, to do the things disney movies teach you. To never let go of hope and to always keep fighting. Right now i'm not fighting because they want me to. I'm letting go. I'm fighting to breathe, and i will succeed. This is my life, and no bloody law is going to control it. I can't wait to cut my stupid card in two and throw in the direction of this stupid country. I will hold on. I must calm down.It's so very difficult when you're this tired. One step at a time, one day at a time. Soon, i'll be doing the things i want. I want to forget this ever happened. It's just one big bad dream.